And I just thought about the fact that the only guy who has ever loved me committed suicide last month and I had no idea and wasn’t able to even try to help. 

I thought my heart broke when we broke up 6 years ago
I thought my heart broke when I found out he was dating another girl a couple months later.
I thought my heart broke when I saw out they got engaged to that same girl this past New Years Eve.
I knew my heart broke when I got that phone call from his best friend telling me that he had taken his own life.